Check-up Time

my exercise equipments

I have spend plenty of time lately on the out side of my confort zome.

Searching the area - trying out new things.

Sofar I have done pretty good.

Emotionally I mean.

Put lately I've noticed that I might have have been  slipping.

Slipping back to eat-vagabondly-to-shut-down-me-feelings -road.

candy here, more cheesecake there, one macaron just after another and 2 cupcakes at the time.

greedygreedy.

but now Im noticing it.

so, practically I feel like a winner.

I would be too much for me to ask myself no to secure at all, on to those familiar -my long time frenemies- surviving methods, while stepping drastically out of my comfort zone

Im not sad or dissapointed to myself at all.

And that is something I state as a personal growth here.

You see, I invested my youth in diets, binges and self-hatred.

so, no more of that road.

I know I need to do some changes, before everything gets too complicated again.

I need to go and see my therapist.

Have a good and long conversation with her.

I need to focus myself and check that I am really breathing.

(checking the fact that I really am breathing lets me focus unconditionally to myself for a moment)

I also need to clarify more what me and my body really wants.

like suffing myself up with six macarons, do i really want that?

most likely I just need feel some comfort.

( I really do not like macrons at all, I just loooove the colorful outlook of them)

I would like to challenge myself to try out rawfood for a week.

Rawfood sounds interestin.
Sofar, I do not have any experience of rawfood and no idea how to start.

but I have a dream  - I want to try rawfood

I said it out loud, so my dream has a form now.

now I wait and search openly, to see where the world has set up the next clue that leads me towards my dream.

Mr H

I hope you all had a good weekend sofar!

( mine is allmost good, this freking flue is spoiling my mood a bit. I hatehatehate whenever a flu stops by to see me)

With Love,

Sallamari